Angela, of course you miss your h. Why wouldnt you? You love him.
I know that you were really hurt to find out what you did. And you reacted how you did. But now is the time to start to dig in and figure out how you want to act moving forward.
I am not talking about with your h. I am talking about you.
First you have to work through what you are feeling. Really and truly understand it. When you are ready, you can begin to let go of some of those feelings.
You arent ready yet. But I want you to try to understand that working on yourself is for you. Becoming your best self, is for you.
Because if you do it so that he can see it, well, then the changes arent real. And he will see right through that.
The thing to remember is that you should act as the person you want to be. Some days you will make it, some you wont. But that should always be the goal.
For you. Always.
So, think about how you want to handle this moving forward.
I think your h needs to see someone different, too.
