Living on a roller coaster

[CallaghanClown]

Thanks job

My H came to the concert and followed us home (as he called it) to collect a few bits. He stayed for 2 hours chatting. He was so emotional but adamant he is doing the right thing "for all our futures". He seems to hate himself, is confused about everything and seemed even more depressed. He did make plans for us to attend a big event together in March 2014, which I found odd, but just said "that sounds nice".

He had his wedding ring on again but I suspect he only puts it on the days he's here. At least he's considering the children's wishes, as they wanted him to keep it on.

He cried, said he was writing letters to everyone he'd hurt. I'm not looking forward to that. I urged him to consider IC, telling him how much I feel it's helped me. He's not taking his meds every day, which can't be helping.

I know it's not my concern but that will take time.

I am finding it easier to deal with him. Whatever he does stings but it doesn't last as long as it used to. Over time I hope the initial string lessens too, or maybe he'll stop hurting me soon......wishful thinking.

I do see small improvements but can't help but feel like its only him wanting to be friends.