Well, I really am done, guys. People have told me "No, you're not, it's just a phase" - so I keep hanging on, and staying true, but I can't do the fake crap anymore.
W was pretty nasty about the incident with D10 not being allowed to come over - she basically wants the kids to continue hanging out and sobbing when they leave because they know they aren't brothers and sisters anymore; W feels guilty so tries to get them together to feel better.
I responded one time pretty angrily because I have loved those kids as my own, then I stopped and apologized, and said, "I'm sorry, I don't want to argue. I want things to be different instead of arguing, so let's do something new, and be positive. If you want to bring the kids to dinner, we're going XYZ place." It was a neutral place that all four kids love, a 180 for me to stop the arguing and suggest something positive, and a chance for the kids to be together for maybe one of the last times.
W actually called me and said she would come, but only had S5, not D10. She sat down and immediately said, "don't touch me, we are not friends". She then proceeded to tell me what ugly babies our friends have - even the Down Syndrome baby that was given a 15% chance to live that survived through prayer and hope, and is now 2 weeks old and healthy.
Then she got up and left abruptly later, leaving me with the bill. It struck me driving home - what the heck are you exactly fighting for? This mean-spirited woman who will be mean about babies just to get a free meal?
The only positive is that S5 got to snuggle D13 the whole time, probably for the last time.
W texted me later and say she wanted to discuss some stuff about our relationship Monday, but quite honestly, I don't even want to be around her.
