He's not 'in love' with me

[CallaghanClown]

So today was my big concert. I went, sang mediocre and got by. I did enjoy it more than expected. My H took the kids to watch and thanked me for letting him come with us. He then followed us home (he called it home) to collect a few things but stayed for 2 hours chatting about work. It then led to a conversation about his depression. I tried not to tell him what to do but I did say I think IC would benefit him like it has me.

He got upset in parts (i offered a hug but he didnt take it), telling me he didn't know who he was, whether he was a good person, whether he was a good father. I told him his kids love him and that he's being a great father. He then said he thinks he's made the right decision for our future.

I hate hearing him say that he's made the right decision because it sounds so final but it def hurts less than it used to.

He asked how I was and I said I'm in IC and working on myself and moving on with my life. He wanted to go and get me some food (I've lost 22lbs in 7weeks) but he didn't mention the weight loss.

He did talk about getting away from all the people telling him what they think he wants to hear. I suspect his two divorced business partners with mid twenty girlfriends may not be encouraging him to return to his wife!

I guess I just keep looking after me and being a friend to him. Only time will tell.