We had what I hope to be our final meeting with mediator today.
All I need to do is sign the document that I have in my bag over the weekend with a notary. I am so ready to have this behind me.
I feel like I have been abused for the past two years.
Anytime I show emotion he either calls me a b!tch or just looks at me like see this is why I left.
Today at the meeting I cried. I was surprised at how hard it still is.
He is so cold to me.
About a week ago he went back on paying me any alimony because he "crunched the numbers and they didn't add up"
Whatever. I didn't fight him. It's pointless. He is a selfish jerk.
Today at the meeting the attorney was going through each section line by line and I got emotional I said "don't bother this document doesn't have anything I want in it. H takes out alimony but doesn't agree to postpone our court date Monday. He is a cold hearted man. "(Which I dread)
H and mediator look at me like I am an a$$hole.
I tried my best but I am human and I have emotions. For h to blame the entire breakup on me is a lot to weigh on me. The pain inflicted on my children weighs on me because he still claims it is all my fault. If he could just admit to some part in this it could ease my pain.
At least the legal part is over.
I am so grateful for my beautiful daughters. I am so so lucky.
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
