I'm sorry you are hurting. But believe it or not you are moving forward. You are grieving for what was. Let that old stuff go and think about how to move forward.
Your kids need you.
I remember being at this spot, where I was done crying, done stressing over his stupid decisions. It's still hard but it does get easier.
Good for you for getting an account for you, very smart move. Especially if he is suddenly taking that large of an anmount out. How ridiculous. Ugh.
Let him soak in the lies and deceit he has created. Doing anything with him will NOT make you feel better, so pull away big time. Be strong my friend. You can do this.
Slow your mind down and practice deep breaths, in through your nose out through your mouth at least 4 times.
I'm reading a really good book, the Passion Trap. Maybe see if your library has it. or can order it interlibrary.
Pumpkin muffins and latte, can I just say YUM! I may have to go get some of that now...thanks a lot, LOL.
Me:49 H:47 S: 16 T:27 M:25 My EA: 2001 His PA: 10/2007, 6/2013 Separated, but H still in house
Find your Shambala: a place of peace and happiness.