Guess I belong here now...

[sweetbabyred]

So last night felt like March all over again. I'd been texting casually w xh and around 10 wished him a good night and told him to let me know if there was any chance of seeing ss this weekend.

He responded, "good night. i made a mistake tonight." and as his usual pattern didn't say anything or respond when I asked him what was wrong.

I don't live with him and we're D, so he doesn't have to mention this stuff and I'd never know. But he'll passive aggressively put it out there and not comment.

30 min after saying I hoped he was ok, I texted him asking him not to tell me things like that and then disappear. That it just showed me how bad we were at communicating.

Shortly after that he responded, apologizing and saying he was ok.

He'd gone out drinking, upset that his job is officially over, and decided to text ex-ow to say hello. She, in her usual manner, responded by yelling and cussing at him.

He later called me, at one point saying that he'd loved her as much as he had me. It was just one more reminder of how differently we view love.

And that he is still running from his problems instead of trying to work on them. I know I'm not perfect, but I'm working to improve the things I can and not keep reacting in the same way.

I really do hope that one day he'll work on his issues because none of his relationships will ever be successful until he does.