My birthday was last week (guess I need to update my sig) and it went pretty well. I got tons of texts and fb messages from friends and family, so it was nice to hear from all of them.
I've spent 1-2 days per week with xh for the last two weeks. He always makes the first contact and invites me over.
He's told me that fl w is pressuring him every day to commit to her because she wants to move, but wants commitment first. He understands, but says he isn't ready for that. One reason was because of me-(not that he's in love with me!), but he remembers how I was when we were long distance and that she seems extremely jealous. If she's jealous when they're casually dating, I can only imagine how much worse it could get.
I think I am getting more detached, but it is tough because xh seems so much like the old h I knew.
I'm still working on myself. I discovered the joys of interlibrary loan and am getting relationship/communication books from all parts of the state that I couldn't get nearby.
I just keep reading the various messages in the Bible about being patient and receiving what I have been promised. I'm a planner and doer, so being patient doesn't come easy. Perhaps that's why I've made it a mission to improve myself. It gives me a project to work on.
What I do need to work on is not being jealous of fl w. Xh is single, so he can do what he wants. Being jealous won't bring xh closer to me anyway, so it's just a waste of time.
M36 XH34 M-5 T7 4/11 H confused 5/11 ILYB 6/11 OW discovered 7/11 I move out, OW over 5/12-OW2,done->new EA, but H wont file 9/12 H "best bf ever" to EA/OW3 3/13 H/OW break up H files 4/13 D 6/18/13
