He's not 'in love' with me

[CallaghanClown]

This evening has seen a backslide like no other.....

My H came to look after the kids while I went singing. He turned up with my laptop that he's been using for work. I needed to print something so plugged it in. That's when I found he's wiped it. All documents all pictures gone. 6 years of kids pictures gone.

I cried like I've never cried before. Hugged my 6 year old sobbing.....I don't cry. Realising I was upsetting the kids, I composed myself and went to a friends for advice.....and to cry more. Thankfully a computer tech took the laptop right away and is looking into retrieving the data. But I was also upset that whatever he was hiding was important enough to delete everything.

I asked him calmly what he was hiding, when he said nothing, I told him I thought he should leave. He got aggressive, so I asked him not to and told him I'd get the kids to say good night. They were so upset but I had to set a boundary.

I'm devastated. I'll cobble together pictures from various sources but I'll never be able to understand how anyone could do something so hurtful and deceitful.

I'm not looking forward to the computer tech retrieving whatever he was hiding. I'm shaking at the thought.