wife hardends heart-4

[planet]

Mr.Bond,
I felt like an idiot thinking of wanting some form of clarification from W. I KNOW I'm setting myself up for some blurry answers which will confuse me even further. Descending into an emotional wreck later on.

I've thought long and hard on boundaries. I can only set up rules for myself. I should firm up and not let her dictate how things should be. It's W wish who she wants invited and who aren't. I just have to deal with that my own way and i shouldn't be bothered with what she does or does not.

It is not my intention to go back to my old self. I realized that I don't need W around. I can take care of my kids alone. I enjoy my time alone with them and i'm very sure they do too. Also, I don't have to depend on anyone for my own happiness.
That is what scares me. I don't need W. How shall i go on from here?

adinva,
I understand.
Be the best dad my kids would love and respect.

AnotherStander,
That is the very first book i read after BD and yes it is crude. It's almost all about his sex romps with his wife.
The book also mentions about balancing alpha and beta qualities.
I don't know why she married me. I don't even know what she sees in me.
I think i'm essentially the same person the first time we met and right before BD.
I have drop 'desperate' and 'clingy' after I got his forum and DR. I'm working on dropping being 'sad' completely.


I have reached another destination in my journey. And now, would everyone please alight from my roller-coaster.:)