I dunno. Professor or Librarian *can* have a sexy connotation. Depends what you're into I guess
But Dude, you are comparing and competing with your ex. That's just silly. You're hurt. Ok. Got it. I think you have a lot of right to be hurt. But have you noticed it's you that's keeping you back? That's keeping you hurt? Your ex is going to do what she's going to do. Your actions seem on target - responsible and wanting to provide for your kids. But I think we all see what you're saying and wondering, "really?, that's what's important? Keeping up with the ex-jones'? " or is there more to your life and to you than to live under her shadow?
Process it as you need to in your way. But at some point you have to see that providing for your kids and competing with your ex are two very different things.
Just sayin'
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
