In and out of fog city

[2ndtimearoundCA]

Hopefully I am saying this without too much expectation, but my situation does seem to be improving ever so slightly. The ups and downs are still there, but we are seeing each other once every couple of weeks now. Previously a month or more would go by. I continue to be scared that she is just hoping to be friends, but the fact that she put the sex thing out there a few weeks ago (even though she also took it away in the moment) means that she still possibly thinks of me that way too.

Anyway it is still a little painful to have the periods of no contact which feel long to me. I had previously thought of my current situation as movement toward a brand new relationship with the expectation that things would take a similar path to when I first started dating my w. Things moved pretty quickly when I first started dating my w. So I envisioned much more frequent communication and much more frequent dates. So I now hit myself over the head with a 2x4 for having that expectation.