Well, for no particular reason, other than I feel it's time, I'm ready to step off this rollercoaster.
I do believe major positive steps have happened, the latest being W confessing she doesn't want divorce, and saying "I love you" for the first time in 3-4 months.
She has also hugged me tightly, complimented me, and asked me to spend time with her. All good things.
But she still blames me for almost all issues, still has divorce in place, and I feel like all these positives are for naught until W is ready to make a change. I don't even know "what" that would be; I guess ready to commit to marriage.
I have been all over the place, I know this. But while I may not have done well with W, I have been having a blast with ME. When I'm not around W, I'm losing weight, working out, making new friends, going out, doing something almost every weekend. Actually about to watch a movie, just S11 and I. Awesome kids too!
