CC, I'm new to this roller coaster ride as well, so I'm probably not full of sage advice. I'm so sorry that you are here, in this situation. It's awful and confusing and chaotic. I will tell you this, though - it does get easier. I still love and miss my H very much, but I made myself detach and GAL. It was really hard at first, but every time I'd start to obsess or pick up the phone to call, I made myself stop, and I immediately started to occupy my time and thoughts with something else, something I enjoyed. Now I find that missing him doesn't hurt as much as it did before. I haven't cried in nearly a month, and I no longer rush to the phone as soon as I get in the door to see if he's called.
I've seen the phrase "make time your friend" often on these boards - and I have taken it to heart. In our situation, it really is the best thing we can do.

As for being highly sexed, I definitely feel you on that one. Not to get to TMI, but I have a box of toys and a supply of batteries, and I'm not afraid to use 'em! No, it isn't quite the same, but it does take the edge off. laugh


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