I don't think Tad looked - "supposedly made" seems to indicate otherwise. Family members and friends have a way of trying to tell you things.
Tad, UR and the others are right. You'll drop that anger when you're ready. But you've heard that before. We challenge you because we know you need to keep moving. Finding something different - people, places, etc is a great idea. When you start to feel this way, chaning the routine is helpful. Finding somebody to talk to is important. You really should. Face to face and damn the reasons not to. Somebody to talk to is what is being suggested.
Peace, AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."