So, I took S to his first counseling session today. It was...difficult. On the plus side of things, I think it was cathartic in some ways. I got a real sense of just how unhappy S is, and has been for a while. And he talked some to me after we left. But he really wouldn't talk enough in the session to start getting at the root of things. On the negative side, when the counselor started talking about hospitalization, we both noped right out of there. Look, I know S is depressed, but I have NEVER felt that he was suicidal - not even after all the painful stuff he had to go through today. I'm not even sure it is all psychological, tbh. His depression really seemed to start when he hit puberty, and this may be mostly a chemical imbalance. I'm considering trying to get him on anti-depressants, and see if medication will make some improvements. Seriously, I couldn't believe this guy wanted to stick my kid in a hospital after talking to him for 45 minutes!
