Ok, so I got thru a day of "not" bringing up the fact that H was out doing who knows before he came home at 3am. It was not easy! Let it go, let it all go!
I have blocked all calls from EAs rant! I have also hooked the house phone back up, it's also blocked from her, but now I'm not blocking him from using it!
I know, have always none, but am now accepting, that nothing I have done has changed anything. There is no magic stone for me to continue looking under for the one answer.
My h has said the one thing I did do with all of my "standing in his way" was stop him from going to far, he claims to have been haunted by me from doing something to outrages. Idk what that means but I am have stopped, stopping him.
In doing so tho I have separated myself from the M as well. I am having the mindset that there is no M, it is at this point only a legal bond.
He has become someone I used to know!
The past can't be ahead of you in the future. You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction. What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!
