"I just wish i didn't change but i can't go back now."
Change what?
The "problem" that you see is more of an AWAKENING. You now know and understand what makes a M work. There's nothing wrong with that. Are you saying that you now wish you went back to your selfish lifestyle before? That's what your ultimate issue is.
You haven't detached or set your own path in life yet. Set a direction and aim for it. If you don't want your kids to talk to him, then you need to establish some boundaries. You haven't done that yet.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
