Better to love or be loved?

[willbwell]

I did not send the email to h. thank you Luke and JS for your replies.
h was here last night to see s20.when h is here we have good, friendly interaction. I don't think it is fake or contrived. I can't stay mad at h. I know this is mindreading...wondering if he is friendly because he is a step closer to D.

s17 has a big race this weekend. h will go. I did not ask where h will be staying. So, tell me...(again) do I say nothing about ow? That feels like I am just turning a blind eye. I did ask h to not call/text d when he is with ow. it is insulting to us. where the h@// is my detachment?