JonF, just caught up on your weekend. I don't have much to add or any amazing advice. Sounds like your W is like my H, right now.... pretty much all over the place.
I agree with others... You're not done yet. Keep working on you. Like me, I bet you have a lot of work to do on finding out who YOU are. Focus on you!
See how I tell you what to do when I am having such a hard time doing it myself? Lol.