A Fresh, New Day - Pt II

[Pudmuddle]

Okaaaay, this was weird. My H just came back upstairs to tell me about parent teacher conferences, so we talked and agreed on about what time we could do this. Then he said well I just got attitude from S when I just tried to talk to him. I laughed and said 'He IS a teenager". H said, 'I know'. Then I said 'don't you remember being a teenager?' He thought about it and said 'No I don't'. HUH? I said 'Really?' He said 'No I was so busy with swimming and activities, we swam 5000 yards a day and by the time I got home I was wiped out and in bed'. I just gave him a quizzical look. And he said 'Well I bet my mom could tell you some stories' I laughed then because I said just about the same thing at the same time about asking his mom if she would remember the teenage years. Then we laughed about that.

Then, the strangest thing happened. He walked over to me an removed my glasses I had on. I was like what the heck is he doing here. He then gave me a HUGE hug and said 'I'm really sorry for not being there for you when your father died. I was a bonehead H and I am so sorry I wasn't there.' (This was one of the things I brought up in our heated discussion the other day) I started to weep just a bit, not much though. And I thought OMG what is the right db thing to say here? <--see what you people have done to me, haha. Anyhoo, I ended up saying 'wow, I really appreciate that. I know it was hard for you when there was so much emotion going on with me, and I can have A LOT OF EMOTION' and I giggled a little bit. He laughed and said 'ya think?'

So I don't know what's going on right now inside him. And I am kind of freaked out and extremely pleased at the same time!

It's hard to think ahead because you want to think he has good intentions but then you are so gunshy you wonder if it's because he wants something, going to ask for something you don't want. I know, I know, stay away from that crystal ball.