Well...got home and another bombshell hits.
We are eating supper and H says, "don't get mad, but how much do mediators cost. I think it's time to get one."

WHAT??? I need off this ride!!! We are doing so much better and then, this. He says it is because we just aren't getting any better. I said I was sorry he feels that way but that I disagree. Then I fail horrible as I burst into tears and have to leave the room. He also says that he has been nice lately so we can have a civil divorce for the kids.

My heart is crushed.