Update:

Had a decent weekend. Like a few others, I backslid a bit on Saturday, but overall, did ok.

My son had a band competition on Saturday morning. My H has NEVER shown any interest in our son's band stuff. As a matter of fact, last year, he refused to go to some "stupid band thing"...So, I told him about the competition, but didn't figure he was going.

I was ready to leave when H got home from work. I mentioned that I was about to leave, etc. and he said, "Well, I'm going so don't leave without me." I was totally surprised.

Then, when we arrived, he wanted to make sure that S15 knew that we were there...that his "dad" was there. It was kinda cute.

Afterwards, H took me out to breakfast where we hung out for a couple of hours. For a while, he was on his phone a lot, so I started gazing at the view out the window. He kept asking me what I was thinking so deeply about...also, somewhere, the issue of "trust" came up but I avoided talking about it.

I backslid on the way home, because he kept asking what I was thinking about at the restaurant and why I couldn't just trust him. I couldn't help it...I started crying. And, I then gave him the reasons why I can't trust him. It wasn't a pleasant conversation and totally NOT DBing. We didn't "argue" too much and the rest of the evening was good.

Sunday, he texted me after work but didn't come home. He stayed in town until 4:00 PM watching football. When he finally got home, he was a little upset that I hadn't asked him to come home that morning. I was trying to give him space and not pressure him...then, he's upset because he feels "unwanted"....ugh. More MLC fun.

But, we had a good evening. He was off work last night so he got to spend time with the kids, too.

I gotta go, but I have a couple of things I need some input on about our R talk on Saturday...so I'll add more later.