Well...I guess this leaves me at the same place I found myself almost a full year ago....holding on to hope. I'm continuing to make my way thru the painful healing of my divorce, and the loss of a family I once had. I'm still surprised at times how much I still think of and miss my ex, and the kids, and how a simple smile of a past memory can eventually bring me to tears if I enjoy it too long. But on a good note, I know I am wiser and stronger for everything I have gone thru and in gaining the knowledge I have now. All I can do is continue onward to a better and new beginning.
Dropping the rope....doesn't mean you give up. It just means you are not going to struggle with that battle anymore.
And since it is clear that I have no other options at this time, I resign my self to, giving my ex the room, and respect she requests, and holding on to Hope that some day I might get another chance....peace be with you all! Thanks for your input.
M 52 W 40 D 15 (step) S 12 (step) Married 7, together almost 8 Separated 1 year before bomb from her "I love you, I'm just..." BD final 8/22/12