I just spent two days really prepping myself for this. I remember catching a glimpse of labug or someone talking about how their H leaving really shook them up, and changed them for the better. I actually said this to W this past week; even though I wish it was different circumstances, I was grateful because I've become so much more patient, and kind, and I see good in people, and I have unconditional love.
Well, not 30 minutes after I posted on here that I was ready for divorce, W texted me and said, "I don't want divorce, but I don't know what to do. I'm not sure if I can trust you or give you my heart again." I didn't respond for a long time, and I finally just said, "I don't know what to do either." She texted for awhile about how she wished I had protected her heart, and just loved her for who she was, and went on for awhile. I just said, "I wish that too. But I don't know what to do now".
This may not sound like validating or pressing for feeling or DBing, but it was all I could do to not be Mr. Fixit; a huge 180 for me.
She finally said, "I have to go to bed; I don't know what else to say tonight", and I said, "OK. Night".
Then, for some reason, I texted, "I love you". For the first time in 3 months, W texted back, "I love you too".
Can someone please transport me back to a world that makes sense?
