Jon - you have been here before. I don't believe that you are ready for divore. However, you may be ready to get off the roller coaster. Get off the roller coaster and live your life. I know it is easier said than done, but I think that you are getting there. You are now going dark for you and not your w ... which I think is a great step for you.
Me-45 W-44 T-7 years M-3 years (4th anniversary July 13, but we're separated) Kids from previous relationships (s14 d16 mine, s23, s24 hers)