Thanks for checking in, Pud. This will be my last post here probably for awhile, although I'll probably keep up on everyone's sitches.
I am ready for divorce. Wouldn't say excited or happy, but ready. I may check on others from time to time, and I'm eternally grateful for those that have given me advice and guided me.
This is not a whim. Remember I've been through this before with XW1. The only thing I got out of four years of DBing with XW1 was a lot of false hopes, broken promises, watching OMs go through. Don't get me wrong - DBing brought me out a better man, better friend, better father, many things that I wouldn't trade for the world, but not XW1, and I'm in a better place because of it.
I won't stop DBing, I just won't be doing it with W. Perhaps if she finds herself through her own journey, we may talk again.
I am completely unemotional about this; not angry, not frustrated, not upset, not making a rash choice. I have thought and prayed and weighed this the last two days.
But now I'm going dark, truly dark, not dim or extra dim. I will not respond to any contact, and I'll see W in court 12/16.
You guys are awesome! I'll be back soon, I'm sure!
