He's not 'in love' with me

[CallaghanClown]

I've been so snappy this weekend. The kids have been so emotional and it's hard being the only one dealing with everything every day. I'm so tired from not sleeping, I'm still not eating, although I've eaten more today than in a long time.

I'm just so confused. I know he's depressed, having a MLC but how the hell can he throw away 10 years together. He's chasing every girl he sees as far I I've heard. I feel so humiliated. This is so far out of character I just don't know what to do, or say. He's a stranger to me.

He wants to stay friends. I'm not his bloody friend, I'm his wife. I would never stay friends with someone that lies to me.

I tried to leave him to have some fun with the kids the other day and he snapped at me "I thought you wanted family time". Because the girls got upset, I stayed for a while to play, but I soon left quietly without a fuss. I don't want family time, I want my family back. He's not my husband, he's an imposter. Handing over my kids to him is going to be so hard, feels like I'm giving them to a stranger, it goes against ever mothers instinct I have.

Having said all this, I want to save my marriage. I love him, the him that didn't lie, didn't cheat, didn't chase barely legal little girls around to boost his ego, the guy that would do anything to help someone, the guy that you could depend on, the guy that didn't have an ego.....

Since the MLC he started paying attention to his kids, which is lovely, but means I have to see him, listen to him every night on the phone or at my house. It's really not helping me go dim. Any advice?