Well, he stayed out of touch for days. Some employees tried to contact him re business issues and he didn't reply to anyone on Friday. He had told me he was working on his "letter" to me and to give him a few days, which I suppose was code for he will be out of touch. I didn't expect him to ignore our staff, too.

Based on the airline website stuff, I suspect he was on a getaway with OW this weekend.

(Some of my posts have not been put on the board yet, so I don't remember if I mentioned that I had sent him an email telling him that I couldn't deal with all of this again and am moving on and told him to do the same.)

Anyway, today I get an email saying he is trying to decide what to do with the business in India - keep it going or shut it down. He says that he knows if he continues to go to India, we can never rebuild ... wants to talk things over with me ... says he loves me and cares for me .....

He insists he is there for business and nothing else. I am actually beginning to think that he has convinced himself that OW is not a factor for him being there --- when I know through my "mole" that she is practically living with him.

I replied that if he had decisions to make about the operation over there, that the decisions were entirely up to him ... that I cannot help with that and told him to do what he thinks is best. No way I would let him put me in a position that he could someday blame me for that failing.

I am doing okay. Although I would like to save the marriage, telling him to move on seems to have helped me get to a stage of being able to accept that he may just do that. I am also doing a better job of remaining calm and not jumping at any little sign that he may be taking peeks out of the fog. In some respects I am glad he is half a world away. Although I think about all this a lot, I am not in the eye of the storm and am grateful that there isn't daily drama here at home.


Me: 59 and holding
H: :53
Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown
M: 19
T: 23
BD: 9-23-2013