I have changed my name, too. I used to post to you, Tad.
I'm thinking you might want to reconsider the meds or at the very least, try to see a therapist. You are in a slide here, sweetie.
I know you have lost a lot and I am so sorry.
The thing is that you can still have an amazing life. Your choice, though.
One day, when you are ready, you will meet someone if you choose.
And you have milestones to reach with your sons.
They are watching you, Tad. It is your job to show them how to navigate through life with strength and courage.
If you would like people to write, you would need to be a bit more active, right?
I'm curious. You seemed to have really loved radio. Is it something you might want to revisit in some capacity?
You should be around people, Tad. Have you checked out Meet-ups in your area? Are there any church groups you can join? The library or township sometimes have gatherings.
Poke around. Try to do one thing. There are many free things you can do.
Come on, Tad. You gotta pick yourself up. Theres a whole lot of world out there.