Day By Day

[tadpole1025]

Thanks for the response. A lot of people on here don't respond to me anymore because most of the ones who followed my sitch from the beginning have quit posting here. There are a few, but most are gone.

I try really hard to look at the good things in my life.

I try to look at things that way as well and although I am thankful for what I do have, it still doesn't help with all that I have lost. Sometimes I feel that I was a contestant on "the wheel of life", bet the max and then lost it all.

You have to make a decision to dig in a bit more, Tad. It's really all you can do.

I've done that too, but still feel like I'm spinning my wheels.

Do you take anything for your anxiety? I am not saying that is for everyone or the answer for it. But, it can help you get over the bad spots for awhile.

I'm not at the moment. I was on anti-depressants for nearly two years, but worked my way off of those.

Do you have people you can talk to? That is so important.

Not really. I don't socialize with my old radio friends much these days, my mom is dying and my only living brother is a drug addict. I've pretty much become a hermit. I've dated a few ladies, but to be honest, I don't think I'm ready or I'm just so emotionally damaged that I'll never be ready. I feel nothing when around them. Sure, I find them attractive, but I feel nothing for them and could care less if I ever see them again when the date is over.

I'm just...

Numb.

I haven't talked to XW in a while and I'm good with that. She brings me nothing but hurt.

Mom continues to decline and it is also wearing me down. S18 told me the other night that I just need some time away. I wish. Boy, do I wish.

Tad

P.S....Was there a reason that Snodderly changed her name? Just curious.