Wendylon, I felt the calling to check the boards now, and there you were! I only have a few minutes to write bc I'm meeting w my web developer, but wanted to send you a huge hug and to remind you to honor yourself and your feelings. You are an amazing woman and deserve an amazing life. Your H is not in a good place...but this doesn't mean you have to be, too. Continue being in touch with your feelings and the answer(s) will come to you in time. (((((((((((((((()))))))))))))))