H called today, about 10 days since the last time he called. (FYI: I haven't called him in 2.5 months, I've initiated texts 2 times in 2 months, once time was not necessary, the other was important.)
Funny b/c on my last post I noted that he only calls b/c of financial business, to let me know he's spending or about a bill etc...
Today he called and instead of starting off talking about "business" he began with "what's up?!", I was caught off guard so I began w/ telling him the dog has been very sick for the last 3 days, but seems to be in better spirits today. etc... then asked him how he's doing?
He started off w/ telling me he decided to stop smoking this month. (Background info: We dated long distance, he lied to me while dating and said he didn't smoke, I didn't find out until marriage that he did. It was a huge problem. #1 because he broke trust by lying, #2 I would never date a smoker...let alone marry someone who was a smoke and want them to quit, as I am not a forceful person.)
So now that we're not together, he quits, and for now has an electronic cigarette that he plans on using for 1 month and then stepping down from there to be completely done w/ smoking. I told him that's a big step, congrats, and that I am proud of him. He said "thanks, I am proud of me too"
He went on to talk about work and how great everyone is per usual...then he talked about his new apartment, and being excited to decorate (he never helped me decorate our place together, I'd have to drag him to the store. But he did always complement my decorating skills and bragged about me decrating when people came to visit), he said he has a budgeting app on his phone so he can try to "as good as you" at budgeting. So I guess that is a positive he complemented me in a way?
I sometimes feel that with him wanting to decorate, budget etc... that he's taking the positive things he learned from me/things I did for us, and is implementing them in his new life.
Overall we talked for about 45 mins.
One thing he brought up that came to my mind a few weeks ago: this is his first time ever living alone. After college he moved back in with his mother & grandmother and took care of her, then moved in with a girlfriend and when that relationship went sour she tried to kill herself to stop him from leaving, then from there he moved back with his mom, then we met (while he was still living with/supporting his mom, and he moved from living with her to being married and moving in with me. So he said he's excited to be on his own completely, buying furniture etc...
While he was saying this I began to feel sad, while I understand his happiness, hearing his plans for his apartment etc... and where he plans to live next year etc.. etc... hurt a little. But I kept my self together. Validating etc.
I ended the conversation after about 45 mins. The last few conversations, as I've noted here, he ended with "call me if you need anything... or call me if you have questions..." etc.
Today when I ended the conversation he said "Ok, I just wanted to see how you were doing. I didn't call for anything specific, in case you were wondering...."
We'd talked for 45 mins, clearly nothing specific was brought up... so I obviously I knew at this point that he didn't call for anything specific, as he usually does. So I'm wondering if maybe he wanted to make sure I noticed that this call wasn't like the others? (I know mind reading).
me: 30 H:30 tgthr:7 m:4 no kids 5 counseling sessions initiated by H as a LR: Oct 2012 long distance marriage b/c of work since Nov 2012 official BD: July 2013 nothing filed 1/1/14 I dropped the rope