Do I tell her how I feel 1 year on?

[LJC]

As always, thanks for the replies

I didn't bother going out to watch the football lastnite as the weather was awful so I stayed in and watched it. I knew my W was going to be out as it's her brothers birthday so the chances of bumping into her was going to be high, when I dropped the kids of to her yesterday evening she mentioned her brother was coming down if I was interested in going for a drink. Part of me hoped this was an indirect invitation from her but I think she was just being nice.

After the football I did draft an email to my W. Below is what I came up with, there is a small intro to the letter but this is the main bulk of it. I've tried to word it so it doesn't sound needy, begging or to give me one last chance it just tells her how I feel.

"I'm gonna come out and say it as all to often I beat around the bush - I'm still very much in love with you. I know this is something I have to own and live with but I hope you understand I had to tell you that. The truth is I've always loved you, I've tried so hard to move on, I thought if I could meet someone else it would take the pressure off our relationship, people would stop asking them damn awkward questions but in truth I never wanted to go and meet other women, all I was doing was trying to replace you but deep down I didn't want to replace you - I wanted you.

The reason I'm telling you how I feel is because I don't want to live to regret not telling you. You know the question we all ask 'What if'. What if I didn't tell you how I feel? I guess I'd have to learn how to deal with how I feel but along time has gone past without you and I still feel like I do.

I'm sorry I've brought this up, I've tried to think how it would effect how we are with one another after writing it but only the future can tell us that! I really hope you understand why I had to tell you - these feelings for you have literally consumed my life over the past weeks and months where it has been driving me crazy."

I don't have a set date when I would send it but I have the kids this weekend so if anything it would wait till Monday, a stay of execution if like!

Any advice would be great but for now thanks once again for all your time on my thread