Stuck between a rock and a hard place!

[dorightman]

Thanks labug, I appreciate your positive energy. As much as this hurts, I'am holding onto the thought that things will get better when the dust settles.

My kids seem to be adjusting to all the changes and seem pretty happy.
I'am seeing a new therapist now who is less spiritual and more based on dealing with reality. He's helping me deal with acceptance and making the best of the situation as it is today. He told me that if w will ever want to R, it won't be until the ink dries on the divorce papers. He said it would take 6-12 months after the D if she would come around.
W has been friendly with me when she sees me, the only conflict now is in the settlement terms for the D. I'am trying to work it out with her out of court and without a lawyer because I know that she's got the upper hand as far as legal advice!
I'm working on trying to understand why I feel so attached to a person that says they don't love me anymore.