Hi Pudmuddle. So sorry to hear you are in this place again, too!
Right now, I am in a really bad place. After a lot of thinking (yeah, my brain is mush, too), I came to realize that I let him manipulate me into using business funds to set up his "love nest" in India.
On the surface, it seemed logical to get an apartment over there since he was there so often - it would be cheaper than the hotels. Then, there was the car and the furnishings for the apartment. When setting up the factory over there, there were a lot of expenses and he would give me invoices with inflated charges so he could put away money over there "for us." (His partner over there was complicit in that little scam.) He would take large amounts of cash with him on each trip, telling me it was for machinery and expenses. All told, he has bled about $100,000 out of the company this year to set up his new life.
I feel like such a fool. I let myself be manipulated by him, knowing full well his history.
He sends me emails telling me how much he wants me in his life and then later in the day, our employee will get a picture of H and the OW all snuggled up on the couch.
But, I am muddling through. I think I have protected the business and I had my first session with a therapist this week. She mentioned a good friend who was a divorce attorney, but I didn't get the name. I'll have to get that so I can get advice on how to protect the company assets legally.
I have made it clear that I will not let him treat me like he did before and that I want to move on with my life (my boundary). I told him to just go do whatever it is that makes him happy.
Since then, I haven't heard a word from him. (All of our contact is through email since he is in India.) Guess he's going dark on me??? Or maybe figuring out how to get control back???
Me: 59 and holding H: :53 Me: 1 S, 1 D, both grown M: 19 T: 23 BD: 9-23-2013