You seem to spend so much time facing backward, the scars "for life" of relationships, the taunts of middle schoolers, the need to have a cheerleader to feel ok. Perhaps your choice of stories here is skewed but it gives an impression of someone who never grew up. Learn your lessons crom the past and look forward. Dont yearn for another high school girlfriend, when there are billions of women you havent met yet. Learn to feel inherent self esteem that comes with you whether you're with a publicly acclaimed beauty or just a regular good woman, or no one at the moment. It's good that your experiences enable you to relate with your daughters teenage angst, but i think your role should be to teach her to put it in perspective and love herself no matter what. But if you're unable to do that for yourself yet, you need to start there.
Teach yourself and your daughter to value the things that go below the surface. If you do, it's hard to see because you talk a lot about people congratulating you for snagging a cheerleader, about weight, about the surface things people on the outside seem to think are good.
Look forward to doing better, to not excusing your self esteem by words some 12 year old said decades ago, to not gauging your success in life by standards set by hormonal 17 year olds. Become more grown up! You have a lot more of value, i can see that from your postings, than whether or not the cheerleader wants to be with you.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.
