BF, my H does think I will find someone quickly, and for him, I'm guessing (yes, mind-reading) that bothers him more than he wants to admit (cake-eating will end for him).
Had a C appointment today...she suggested stepping back from H and just collecting my sense of strength that I had been coming into before making any decisions. Nice to know she agrees w my fellow DBers here!
She also said my recent interactions w H reveal that I was taking the little signals my H was giving (supposed NC w OW, 2 I love yous in one day, genuine hugs) as signs of hope. ANd, in fact, they were not.
In my opinion they were just things he did and said to make himself feel better..out of his own guilt and regret.
He did say (last weekend) that he was sorry for everything that had happened to cause us to be where we are today (this was the second time he's done this). Too bad I feel like to truly be sorry your actions need to match your apology-- his do not at all.
THis week has been all about avoidance for me. I have barely come across H by choice. I just can't be around him right now. I need my space.
This weekend is a 3-day weekend & right now we do not have a scheduled plan about which night he will get the boys. I don't look forward to him "hanging around" at all! I don't want to talk.
Spending more time "browsing" on the dating site...it is my new little hobby just for fun! LOL!!!
M- 18 T-21 S-14,11 & 10 BD 6-18-2012 (OW-EA) H moved out 11-3-2012 10-5-13 Me- I want a divorce. I want to move on w my life. 11-25-13 Jointly filed.
