There were some Roman philosophers who had their funerals celebrated during their lifetime to both prepare themselves for death and to remind themselves to live while they were alive. I was trying to anticipate difficult moments that might come to pass if our relationship can't be rebuilt (there is a book called something like predictable crises of adult life), and to not be quite as surprised by them. Consensus was not the point - collection was.
Yes, I suppose getting strong in myself is the best solution, and being here has been useful for that. I'll be back in Sweden on Sunday morning - will see where things are at then.
The idea of writing down my beliefs is good - thank you -
Luke
M58, xW54 S22, D18 M 1984, D 2016 Living a new life.