Surviving Separation

[slow_it_down]

I suppose today was a major backslide for me. I say 'suppose' because I don't regret it. At least not yet.

I've been sick for the past few weeks but this week it escalated to a full blown sinus infection which is kicking my butt. I'm very limited in terms of what meds I can take because of the baby. If ever there was a week I needed my H to pitch in this was it. Do u think he could be troubled to help, heck no.

Needless to say I backslid quite a bit on the phone when he called to say he was stuck in traffic on his way over. He sounded like he hoped I'd tell him he didn't have to come so I told him to come tomorrow instead. I also let him have it about being so unprepared financially for this and that it's going to be a problem if he's only going to pitch in for an hour or two per week.

I wouldn't be surprised if this one phone call singlehandedly ended his desire to work things out, but honestly if he can't be there when I need him I'm just not sure what I'm fighting for. He continues to find time and money for other things, just not for me, and now not for our S.

Ugh so frustrated.