Tears keep flowing, it's like hole in my heart, it's not the stupid paper, it's the loss of loved one. The total shatter of your dream , the disappointment , she was very unhappy at the court, I could see she was struggling with the choice , prolly moaning in pain. I didnot even make an eye contact. Her mom was the witness and she just took her away from my sight. I felt so bad for her , that I made her make such a horrible choice for her own family. 25 thanks for the encouragement, I am working, starting my own business, will start working out, I need to spend more time with my son, my life line ... I need to be better human, ee work shop I will go this November, keep my self busy , I need to take a mission trip to people in India , I have to release myself .. I will plan slowly , I need to get my mojo back, I know I always go through these troughs and heights all my life, funny my lawyers was so sensible, he said take ur time it's hard for highly educated guys to accept defeat , it hits the ego and failure elements of guy brain. I was hearing Jobe from bible on radio talk show and about suffering, it made my heart literally break into peices when I learnt about him, humans and suffering they say if you love and care,there is suffering attached with it ...
M - 39W- 38 M - 4 yr,Date-4 mths Son - 2 yr day care S - 9/12 Divorced- 10/10/13 Visits with son other week Working on myself & son,co-parent,change,assertive,alpha/beta, entrepeurneur,care,heal,centered
