Hello, my friends! It's amazing how fast time goes by. Lots of good things have happened in my writing career. I'm helping a lot of people already! Have connected with folks all over the world who appreciate my writing. I'm even going to appear on TV!
Joe? I now see the end of our M as a blessing. I resisted it so much but I now see that my efforts to save my M didn't work because this R was toxic. I honestly hadn't experienced so much joy in years. I won't say that the negative emotions are gone (I still cry about what happened) but overall, it's the first time since I married Joe that I'm following my true calling and don't have anyone putting me down or making me feel bad about myself. I had been emotionally abused for years, and now I see it clearly.
Joe is having a hard time. He still doesn't know what he wants, and his bad situation w this woman is making him lash out at people (not me, and I'm grateful for that.) He left a message a few days ago congratulating me for my accomplishments, saying he thinks of me, prays for me, and misses me (even though he thought it was "weird" to say so.) I didn't call him back. Just sent him a note thanking him for the gesture and saying I also pray for him (which I do.) Praying for him allows me to see him with compassion, as someone who just doesn't know better, and to advance on my path to forgiveness.
I have not forgiven the OW (the first one) because I still see her actions as evil (not ignorant) so I'm working on having a neutral attitude to start with.
Today I bumped into this friend of Joe's who's super negative, and I always felt obligated to be "nice" to her because she was his friend. This time I don't have to pretend, so I just walked by her with a huge smile on my face.
I feel blessed.
And I send you love and blessings to you all. Will be back soon.
