You're damaged? Perhaps. You're hurt. And rightfully so. There won't be much debate on that. The question is not if you were hurt or wronged. The question is what are you going to do about it?
I think you have the answers although you may need to hear yourself say them a few more times. And you may need to re-adjust your time-line expectations. You were married a long time and you don't just turn off the feelings.
What's for dinner?
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."