Part of coming on here and venting is that it provides you a safe place to open up with your most angry and bitter emotions. And everyone here has felt those at one point or another. I hope it was cathartic for you and encourage you to use this as an outlet...
Thanks Charlie Brown,
Yes, that was an intentionally cathartic writing experience. I find that I like to write in order to clear my head, and I frequently think out loud when I am talking with my confidants. I tend to learn what the heck I am really feeling in this way.
You are correct in that I was using this space to vent, and to try out some ideas, and to just yell my head off.
I am not planning on dating anyone immediately, but thinking about the concept takes the focus off of W, and allows me to think about some possible scenarios within my own future.
One of the things that has happened to me (and to most of us here), is that I have become ungrounded in time - meaning my future plans, goals, and life assumptions have all been dashed upon the rocks of divorce proceedings. I don't think it is normal or healthy for a fifty-two year old man to have no goals and no plans for a how he plans to spend his life. So naturally, I am thinking through some possibilities. Just thinking about another woman was so foreign to me only months ago, but now it seems an eventual likelihood.
Right now, I am standing for my wife, but I refuse to be unrealistic about this. I believe the chances that she may return are small. Perhaps 15%. It would be foolish of me to avoid conceptualizing the 85% scenario.
Like I said, I am not ready to date yet. But I will be. I just don't know when.
Me:52 Wife:49 Married 19 years Son:16 Daughter:14 Bomb dropped with ILYBNILWY: May 2013 Wife moved out 2Jun13
