You are way overthinking things. Just live the way you want and grow to be confident so your reactions come out naturally. You can't keep coming here asking for a consensus as to what YOU should do. It's YOUR LIFE.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
