Thx, I have to admit, that came across as a very heart-felt and honest expression of feelings. Well written.
You may have noticed now that your feelings careen from carom to carom while on this part of the board. My advice is to enjoy the ride. Life doesn't get much more real than this for you for a while yet. This is your opportunity to awaken to the reality around you. Not what should be. Not what you were "promised" nor what you expected. But what is. It can make the rest of this really worth the ride.
As for the dating. I dunno. I have to say that I've watched many friends that tried that. They immediately dated. Two of them tried to marry the first girl they met. One did. Three of them dated the first girl for a long time. I know of one that dated the first girl he met, married her and recently celebrated their 30th anniversary together.
It's a selfish act to date somebody, but for others I've seen it has been helpful to them, even if hurtful to those they dated. I don't think that makes it right. But I don't know that it makes it wrong either. At least not for you.
Are you that kind of person? That you need the self-assurance so badly you can coldly do to others what was done to you? Would you be one of those people that woke up 7 years into it and realized you had made a serious error in judgement?
Things to consider. I'm never a fan of short-term gain for long-term pain.
AJ
"Our lives begin to end the day we become silent about things that matter" MLK Put the glass down... "Yesterday I was clever so I wanted to change the world Today I am wise, so I am changing myself."
