This evening will mark one month since she moved out while I was at work and served me when I got home. Emotionally I'm in a much better place than even a few weeks ago. I'm doing my best to have no expectations. It's hard to have no expectations and still have hope however.
I'm down to 194 pounds and shooting for 185 or less. I'm doing it healthily as well.
I will continue to try and maintain a PMA and stick to LRT. Deleting Facebook definitely helped quiet my mind about possible affair. The mind is our worst enemy in this.
Hoping I can get my mind back to positives for the rest of the day.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
I sent her an email with my new contact info on Oct 4th. Just got a response today- she even tried some humor from what I wrote to her about getting rid of my smartphone for the safety of pedestrians while I was driving.
"Thanks for letting me know. I'm glad you will be safer driving now... And for pedestrians."
Short and sweet. I know, I shouldn't read into anything, but at least she's responsive and acknowledged my attempt at humor. She didn't mention anything about D or ask about signing stuff like on our last phone call. It would be really easy to do in an email, so I'll count that as a baby step in the right direction. Contact without bringing up either of those two topics.
Today has been a rough day emotionally and psychologically either way.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
This evening will mark one month since she moved out while I was at work and served me when I got home. Emotionally I'm in a much better place than even a few weeks ago. I'm doing my best to have no expectations.
Great! From someone who has been S'd for over a year- remember to be patient with yourself. You may feel better today and be wracked with crazy emotions tomorrow. That's OK, it's part of it. The cycling goes on for a few months. Each time it's less dramatic. Just roll with it! Have you read The Happiness Trap? It really helped me learn how to live with the emotions instead of fighting them, and I think it's one of the reasons I healed so quickly (and by "quickly", I still mean many months).
I didn't do so well about not reaching out early on, but as time went on and I saw just how useless and even damaging it was to reach out I quit doing it. It gets easier with time. GAL is really important, it helps you to become the independent person you were back when you met your W.
I NEVER thought my sitch would run over a year. I was convinced that either my M would be saved in a couple of months or I would die, LOL! But now I know I'll have a great life no matter what happens with my M, and I am truly happy and content with that. You'll get there too!
I hope I get to that point. I wish we had some legitimate reasons to see each other (besides money matters) so that I could start listening, validating and clarifying.
H: 29 WAXW: 30
Bomb Drop- 9/9/13 Negotiated Settlement- 5/9/14 D Final- 5/21/14 XW has breakdown in attorney lobby- 5/30/14
