Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
Hello all, I'm illegally checking in online, and am so touched to see all of your good wishes. Thanks so much uRw for letting everyone know I'm okay.
The surgery was completely different from the first, and I feel so much better than last time. Instead of being put out under annesthesia, I was half awake during the whole thing, and could hear my surgeon, who was instructing a colleague on the method he uses to correct astigmatism, telling the colleague about the unusual structure of my eyes which had made the first the first surgery so technically difficult and what he was doing differently this time. Creepy but sort of reassuring at the same time.
I feel great and have no pain. And can already see better thru the second eye than the first after just one day. Good vision is a blessing, and I have always vowed to donate my eyes and eyeglasses at death!
But the surgeon is being overly cautious I think, and has me on twice as many eye drops as last time and I am not allowed to read or compute or drive until Monday. Blech I'm SO bored.
My H is being a wonderfully supportive H but I am FINALLY able to remain detached after 4 long years, thanks to uRw's and MDW's and Job's words finally sinking in to my thick skull.
I have T2's labcoat and goggles on (the extra strong prescription ones) and am just observing H's actions without letting them, good or bad, affect my mood or actions. When they were taking me away to the OR yesterday H gave me a (real) hug and tried to kiss me. I turned away and gave him the <pat><pat> I usually get.
I'm not sure what has changed inside me and why I wasn't my usual self, pathetically grateful for any physical attention. Getting a real hug was nice but it didn't make me all nuts thinking maybe H loves me again. If this is the detachment kicking in, it's a good thing I think, as I feel sort of calm.
His LL is AOS, and I am the recipient, in the form of pillows and snacks and tylenol for my headache, and best of all, a Dorothy Sayer talking book. Isn't that so nice! And it's chilly so he made a nice fire.
Back when we were all discussing LL, someone said that people whose LL is AOS need plenty of WOA, so I'm making sure to show him that I appreciate his kindness without going overboard.
He is still skyping with the RT every afternoon. I'm waiting for her next tactical assault on him. I think if he gives me BD#3, I'll just tell him I can see why he feels like that, it sounds good to me, and it's time for him to go.
Last night we were watching TV (a permitted activity which I do not enjoy) when he was suddenly overcome by MLC, and got up without a word like a sleep walker or someone in a trance and went upstairs to his room and closed his door. As Dawn would say, the mother ship was calling him! Then this morning his toothbrush is back in the glass with mine.
It is just so strange -- I fear he still has a long way to go on his journey. Me, I'm enjoying my talking book and eating my peanut butter celery sticks!
Linda
Me 65, Ex 64 M 38 y 2 adult S, 4 G-Kids MLC 11/07 BD 12/09 D 3/14 Dating nice guy 7/14 Engaged to nice guy 12/17
Rosa, Please do not stay on the computer! Your eyes are very precious and I don't want to see you have any problems w/the one that just had surgery. The postings will be here on Monday. If you need a fix...maybe uR, Dawn or Nero can give you a call...but please do what your doctor told you to do.
I'm glad you are feeling much better, but I'm concerned about you doing things that you've been told not to do. I know...I do worry about your eyes.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
First of all, my friend, I am so happy things went well. I was praying as hard as I could.
I am so glad if I helped in any way with you detaching. But, give yourself the credit, you worked hard to get here. And we all get there in our own time.
I guess my sitting on your shoulder, whispering in your ear worked a bit. LOL!
Ah, Rosa, you will get through all this.
In the meantime, enjoy your snacks and being pampered. You deserve that and more.
Your h has a strange relationship with the mother ship. He goes on and off of it like a freakin yoyo.
You just take care of you. Leave him to his aliens.
Now, get off the computer and your phone already! LOL!
Glad to hear that your surgery went well for you!