Ya know Nero, after talking to you you gave some different things to think about. I really enjoy sometimes just hear what can't be written.

I keep thinking of the "illness" factor, and how much have I come to terms with that. I think I have given it all the understanding I can give to something that is ruining my life at the same time.

It's that whole, but he's not only hurting himself, there is a part of me that has been taken down because of him. If he was not trying to bash me and all we were as a couple those first few months of MLC, and only attacking himself maybe I wouldn't be left with the " FU" factor.

But hey, misery loves company, and in MLC misery seems to love miserable company, and that's not me, he can't relate to me, that's a complement. He can't relate to my good nature. I don't want to relate to him!

Good for me for not being able to relate to someone off their rocker!

I hope you had a good walk, I really need to work out! I spent the night sniffing baby head and neck, really, they need to bottle that!

I hope you feel better! Oooxxxx dm

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!