Had a "normal" evening with the H and kids. He actually gave me a hug and kiss when he left for work. Doubt it will last, but I'm happy that he was in a good mood anyway.
I guess this is where I can practice "detaching" better....I always feel like the next shoe is about to drop....makes it hard to enjoy the good things because I always wonder when he'll turn into the "monster" again. So, I will practice working on me and not worrying about it (easier said than done. Lol.).
He texted me this morning when he got off work and was in a good mood, then, too.
On the way home yesterday, I thought about what a some of you had told me to work on....."who do I want to be?" and I've been working on that list. For starters, I want to:
(1) Be more independent (not worry so much about what H is doing and not worry so much about what others think, etc.). I'm very independent when it comes to stuff around the house or taking care of the kids, etc. BUT I constantly worry about what others think of me or worry about where H is and what he's doing.
(2)Be more fit and healthy...start running and mountain biking again. Eat healthier.
(3)Just focus on being happier, in general. I want to remember to appreciate all of the little things each day that make me glad....that fresh cup of coffee in the morning....the baby donkey playing in the field....my kids, etc. I have a lot of good things in my life that I can focus on to take the focus off of the sad.
